Monday, 07 January 2008

  • Starving My Flesh

    Our Pastors called the church to a 30 day fast this month starting last Wednesday. And I thought the 1 week fasts we do once a quarter were bad enough, but 30 DAYS!?!?! They requested that it be a juice only fast, which is what they're doing, but whoah. I'm not gonna lie, I hate fasting. That's right, I'll tell it to your face, but I'm doing it anyway. Not the juice ONLY part, but I am juicin' it up for 2 meals and then doing more of a Daniel type fast in the evening. Doing that is still HARD, but I'm trying not to quit or give up before at least a week has passed It's good for me...killing my flesh...at least that's what I keep telling myself when all I want to do is shove my hand in a bag of chips or gobble up all of the yummy lunch meat that's in our fridge (I mean IT IS gonna go bad before this is over).  The chocolate and candy overflowing in a tray on our kitchen counters? Who cares! I want MEAT!! Am I really a girl passing up chocolate for meat? You bet your filet I am! Try to justify THAT to Jesus! Would I rather choose to eat some meat or chips or candy over having more of God? Of course not, so I trudge on.

    And over and over this is the conversation I have in my head. I'm pretty sure He's quite amused by me and that of course makes me smile because after all I am created in His image!

    The first day was probably the hardest. I think my stomach growled for a good 5 hours at least. I was driving home from work and I saw a big sign for McDonalds - which I haven't eaten at in at least 2 years - and it sounded like the most amazing meal ever...my mouth was watering at the thought! SO I guess I'm sort of glad we're starting the year in doing this because 1) I definitely need to eat healthier (please see above, I was tempted by McObesity on the first day). 2) It's that whole beginning of the year must work out more and lose weight thing too. And lastly, 3) It's always a good thing to consult with God concerning the direction of your life, especially for a new year and of course to just get more of Him. Even though I hate it, there really are no downfalls to fasting when I think about it. I may not get answers to ALL of the things I'm seeking, BUT hey, at the very least I may just come out of it a few pounds lighter and that's NEVER a bad thing!

    Join me tonight for 30 minutes on the Gazelle and crunches on the ball.

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